Too bad... Bad luck... Bad karma...

hi there, everyone interested. I have unhappy life now. I live now, but i want to push time and live when i have a happy home full of dogs, cats, kids and my husband and me. No one else around disturbing my brain, telling me what to do, how to do things, and abusing me for doing them wrong. I'm 25 almost but i still live with my grandparents(!!!), not even parents (that would be hell). Coz it's better to live in the home for retired then in the place where hysterical crysis happens everyday, coz they can't control their emotions and become better for their own and others' sake and phychological health. That's what my parents are, namely mother. She doesnt see me as a person, but as her own material for every evil deeds, which can be easily abused and insulted, humiliated easily and then say it's my fault/ She just doesnt get me right, i feel i'm a sensitive person and very vulnerable, and i cant take it that my closest family member doesnt see thru me, take my problems seriously and support. She just cant do it right and no try to change anything, coz everything looks good to her. But i cant escape, cant change myself and go forward when these things go on and on. My efforts alone arents enough.
So hard to be what i am. But that's what i am. Aggressiveness - my main trait. Yes i know it's wrong, but who helps to overcome this, who needs to get me right. Who wants my changes???
I feel comfortble alone, but no one around to share great joy of being what i am, sharing the same interests and hobbies. I mean men. So many around for a while, but not for a lifetime being, love, friendship and support to the full extent. Who really knows my details and doesnt preach what to do, but just says "I'm always there to listen and do the best for you, embrace and give a vest to cry on".)))) That's what everyone needs, i'm not the exception.
Along with my character disadvantages i have a lot of pluses like: faithfulness, loyalty, reliability, sensibility, open mind, responsibility, amiability, sensitiveness... Isnt that enough to stick with me? Isnt that enough to like me at least? I will give a lot in return, but... to whom?
Too bad...Bad luck... Bad karma...))) yeah right... tell me about it