My Universe, planets, satellites...

So... I'm what i am. Who knows it? Partly friends, aquantances and parents? Lovers are confused, employers pleased, enemies disappointed/ ME, I EVEN AM OFTEN STUNNED AT MY BEHAVIOUR AND WHAT PEOPLE THINK AND SAY ABOUT ME/ Familiar situation? Damn right!
To begin with i can note some useful tips to know: i'm full of courtesy and nobility (open doors before men, everything for women pleasure) but what i mean under it is that i'm a bit man alike too, so flowers for them is a pleasant thing to do (couple of times to my exs and friends). You know, there existed some knight rules from the middle ages like winning the heart of a princess, have a tournament with others, sing songs, write poems, suffer for and die for. So am i. I wish i was a knight conquering some prince's heart, riding a horse in heavy armour, travelling in a search of interior sunshine, truth and fate. I fight for justice too.
My pluses: quickly decisive, dynamic, talkative, cheer and optimistic, courageous, full energy, enterprising, attractive.
My minuses: impatient, fond of giving orders, superficial, self-confident, stubborn, often angry and contradicting, indifferent, quick-tempered, flirting.
These are my ordinary and general features, but to tell u the truth it isn't all one can learn about me.
For friends: fair, sincere, open-minded, adventurous, straight-forward, honest and just, loyal and easy-going, responsive, sympathetic, kind-hearted, maybe too cruel sometimes-it's up to them to judge, plus shocking and inventive.
For parents: capricious, active, not much helping though, independent and naughty, but always there for them, like to give some lessons for them, dearest friend and only loving and lovable child.
For employers: meek, hard-working, creative, controversial, communicative, competitive, amiable.
For enemies: indifferent, merciless,furious, cruel, mostly just too kind to continue the fight.
And at last for lovers: you can add here all the previous traits i've mentioned above plus contradicting, confusing, secretive, mean, too open, sexy, fantastic, one in a million, caring, petty, demanding, surprising, crazy, kinky, proprietary behaving, jealous, nimpho, unfaithful, but preety, beautiful, nasty little bitch! OOOh, i am/
As for my pesonal cravings: i wanna have a permanent harbour wheere i can have a rest from all my nasty and out-of-mind affairs, pain and let downs, storms and rains. Hodden from others' eyes and gossips. A large one at sea, with kids, transparent windows, open pool, a fireplace and a huge bedroom for myself. Being travelling aroung the world, doing things that not everybody does like helping kids in Africa, aged in old people's home, wild animals in reservations or to be an oceanologist. Have a man for all of my life, being deathly and reciprocally in love with him and never be spoiled by jealosy and adultery. But at the same time i wanna have every pretty man in the world to be mine, winning heart like trophies and breaking them if smth goes wrong, being the sluttiest slut ever! Kasanova lives in me as well, i am a Diana huntress.
I wish to be solitary and being in the gloriest moment ever, rich, bold and arrogant! I wish my fears and dearest wantings came true. Orgies and murders - libido's and mortido's climax.
Vampire at heart, dark nature, mutant temperament, permanent metamorposises.
What am i? Cosmic dust or tiny universe with gigantic explosive and resurrection powers?
Never to stop, never to be broken, never destroyed, never changed...